Sorry it has been such a long time since I have posted anything. I was so busy being fabulous that I forgot to write it down for everyone to admire. My birthday turned out to be a great day, hanging out with good friends and eating good food. Jenny, [the other] Michelle and Liz all took me out for a day on the town, while my sister did the amazing and babysat Gloria in addition to her own children. The very next day my friend Sarah came in from the city and I had yet another wonderful afternoon of eating great food and gabbing. I like being 27, since 26 was not a very good year for me. It seems like 27 is old enough to have some maturity but still young. I don't know, people seem to attach such importance to the age number and I don't really care all that much about it.

Thanksgiving was by far the most difficult day in a while. The food was wonderful, seeing both families was wonderful, but missing Kevin was crippling. I kept having to take bathroom breaks to cry and wash my face. It feels so raw right now. I am hoping to get myself back on a healthier track in the next few weeks by working out more consistently, eating more fresh and organic foods and cutting out a lot of sugar. I have learned that I consume WAY TOO much refined sugar. My fibromyalgia, TMJ and depression all combine to make me feel miserable a lot and I am tired of just sitting back and waiting to die. So, instead I am going to try and give my body optimal foods and exercise to make it as good as possible concerning the things that I can control.

I suppose it is that time of year to start thinking about New Year's Resolutions, with January creeping around the corner. For the first time in my life I almost want to skip over Christmas, except that I actually had the time to shop for the perfect gifts this year and can't wait to give them. So, what are my potential New Year's Resolutions? The issue is that there are too many things that I want to change so I need to narrow the list. Here is the running list thus far:

1. Lose weight (ha, me and millions of other people). Seriously though, I am in a weight loss contest with the Henry extended family that I really want to do decently in. The contest ends on Easter so I have a little time to get my butt in gear.

2. Eat more healthy foods that are organic and not processed. This resolution feeds right into my laziness factor. I absolutely love fresh and organic foods, but rarely do I have the energy or the money to think about buying and preparing them. So, I need to think of a compromise that allows me to be more healthy in a realistic way.

3. Read books that are fiction again. The past year all I have been reading is the Bible, grief survival books and fitness/nutrition magazines. It is time for me to delve back into the literary world that I so love.

4. Spend more time outside. Does that make me sound like a dirty hippie? The truth is I feel better when I have done things outdoors. I was so proud of myself for trying to waterski last summer and I want more like that. Everything from joining the arboretum to rollerblading to playing badminton in the backyard. I just want to feel more physically confident outdoors,

5. Write more coherantly. Stop writing only gibberish on this blog and stop blinding myself from the real words. I need to pick a mood: dark and funny or dark and darker.

Ok, the list will have to be finished at a later date. Thanks for your patience loyal listeners